Week Update

I don't think I have one specific thing to say, but once I start typing down things that have happened and what I've felt, I'm sure I'll have a lot to say.

Living in Austin has its ups and its downs. I'm glad that I get to be near my dad, which is something that I needed. Our relationship is becoming better. But it's really hard to live with another family. The other day something happened that was just hard to handle. The way they operate their house is different from what I'm used to, the way they spend their time is different from what I'm used to. It's just plain hard sometimes. I've noticed that life right now is just not comfortable. At all. I'm tired all the time because of seminary, school, homework and dance. And of course that I'm not where "home" is in Dallas where I've lived my whole life practically, and I'm living with another family.

But hey! I've got lots of blessings. Don't think I'm ungrateful. If I hadn't moved to Austin, I wouldn't be at the wonderful studio I'm at. I wouldn't be in The Nutcracker as a rat. (which is a totally awesome part, by the way) If I hadn't move to Austin I wouldn't be near my dad. If I hadn't moved to Austin I wouldn't be as close to my mom and sister like I am. If I hadn't moved to Austin I wouldn't have ever felt the sadness that came with leaving my friends in Dallas. And with that sadness, I realized that the reason I cried over leaving them, was because I love them. So much. Specifically Zach and Landon. Man, Zach and Landon are just about the best young men I have the pleasure of calling my best friends. I cry about them all the time. Sometimes not even because I miss them. Just because I'm grateful for them and I love them so much. I know Heavenly Father loves me because he let me have Zach and Landon as best friends.They treat me like who I am, a beautiful daughter of God. So yes, I'm blessed, and in a way glad I moved to Austin. But I still have my home-sick moments.

I've been talking to Cristian on the phone a lot this week. I talked to him on the phone for about 2 hours on Thursday night. We just have so much to say. The day I moved, Cristian was volunteering at the zoo. He was in the middle of talking to a friend when he gasped, and his friend ( a girl, but I don't remember her name, so I'll call her "she") asked him what he gasped for. He said, "Audrey's moving today!" She asked who I was and he said that I'm like his best friend that he's only known for his whole life. A different time he was talking to her, and she asked if we would stop talking now that I've moved. Cristian just laughed. Then he said, "No, we'll probably talk more!" And more we do talk! Haha. We talked about boys for me, girls for him, next weekend when I get to go up to Dallas for Kyla's baptism, and whatever else might have come into our mind. Cristian makes me laugh. =] We're really close friends. Even when we're old, we'll be friends. Forever, I'm certain.

John Bytheway has talked about what kisses mean, and how they're sacred and such. How like...having an arm around someone means "I like you", holding hands means "I really like you", so that maybe kisses mean "I love you". I already love my future husband. I do. I really do. I pray to Heavenly Father a lot to bless my future husband (I'm going to call him Sean from now on. It's an Irish variation of "John" which means "God is gracious" or "gift from God." I think it'll work perfectly in referring to who I'll marry someday.) in whatever it is that he's doing. I hope Sean is out there somewhere living worthily of marrying me in a temple someday (because we WILL marry in a temple). I hope that Sean is working for the Lord every day. I try to. And I know I can't ask anything of my husband that I don't ask of myself. I pray for Heavenly Father to prepare Sean for me. And to prepare me or Sean. I want so badly to live with my Father in Heaven again, that me and Sean have got to work together towards the Celestial Kingdom. I want to be worthy of marrying a man that is one of God's chosen. I want the best of the best. That means that I have to be the best of the best, though. And I have to work on that. And I am. Anyway......the whole point of this is that I decided to not kiss anybody but "Sean". Because I love him. And my kisses mean that I love them. =]

I have to make a shout out now to a very, very special, beautiful daughter of God in my life. Tasha Lea, you are a shining beacon in a world full of sadness. You are the bright light and shining example to all who talk to you and they are lucky, so lucky to partake of your sweet spirit. I wish I could talk with you face to face and enjoy your spirit in person. You are an example even to me. You work hard, you love, and you love your Father in Heaven, everything that I strive to do. I love you.

Alrighty, that's pretty much a lot for now. XD I'll leave my entry at this, and hope that people read it. =P -Audrey Michelle

~There are shortcuts to happiness, and dancing is one of them.~